i am awful with titles.

this is my first blog. i suppose i will begin it in the same manner that everyone always seems to begin their first blog: with a preface.
i have created this blog in an attempt to remain close with the people who reside 600 miles away from me during the school year. i do not know how often i will blog or what about. the idea of blogging makes me a bit uncomfortable, as these paragraphs will be the physical embodiment of my own uncensored ideas and notions. to imagine someone reading them makes me feel very vulnerable and exposed.
blogging seems a bit egocentric to me, but that statement alone makes me a hypocrite. isn't everyone, though? everyone is a hypocrite and everyone is egocentric to some extent. when one is stuck inside their own head all day, listening to/debating with/analyzing themselves, how could one not be egocentric to even some small degree?
writing like this also makes me feel extremely self-conscious and almost forces me to observe myself through my writing when i am re-reading what i've written. in all honesty, i do not see myself writing in this much. as i explained it to my best friend, timmy, "i don't want to state my revelations because i want people to learn things on their own through experience. i don't want to write about my feelings because that makes me want to puke. i don't want to write about my thoughts because that is unnerving and gives too much insight into how i am; i don't want so much of myself to be put out there for all to see."
it is obnoxious to constantly advertise yourself in such a way, but we will see how this goes over.
now, i only need to learn how to make this a private blog.